farewell, my love

happy valentines day, from john and mary mills

2007-02-14T14:36:22Z

memes are better than chocolate. well, perhaps not quite.

2007-02-13T17:48:05Z

Look at your LJ userpics list. If you have fewer than 50 icons, pick every fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five icons, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five icons, pick every tenth one. If you have fewer than ten, pick all of 'em. List them on your LJ, and tell everyone exactly why you have it, why it's interesting to you, what significance does it have.

The Secret Garden, Mary and Dickon.
This is my favourite shot from the entire film and it just sums up everything I love about the film. BASICALLY DICKON. And, you know, Dickon/Mary. AND MORE DICKON. ♥

Gigi Polish poster art by insanity_calls
I love the film, it's my happy film, and the poster is just plain cool. Why do the Poles get all the best movie posters?

Lady Dedlock from Bleak House
My favourite TV series EVAH. I loved making this icon, and this entire set. It was just lots of fun, and I like the colours and everything. Just... yeah. Gillian/Honoria = FTW.

Marie Antoinette by suchdainties
The only excuse I have for this, not having seen the film, is that it's a darned cool icon. Yeah. I love the colouring. It's the only icon I've ever seen that makes that sort of colouring look GOOD.

In The Mood For Love by call_me_daisy
ONE OF MY FAVOURITE FILMS BY ONE OF MY FAVOURITE ICONS MAKERS? YES PLEASE! I myself have iconed this shot because it's just plain pretty. Maggie Cheung is perfection and her dress is beautiful.

Ingrid Bergman
Two times Ingrid Bergman. I don't think this one really needs any more explanation. Ingrid is just an absolute goddess.

Carole Lombard
This was my favourite icon from my fairly recent Carole set. I just love how cheeky she looks, peeking through the brushes. I sound demented.

Norma Shearer as Marie Antoinette
Okay, yes, Norma was de-de-de-lightful as Marie Antoinette. From what I've seen of it, it's the campiest film in the world. And with delicious costumes from Adrian - yeah, I don't ask for much more.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEATHER!!!!!!!!

angsty stuff, ignore me

2007-02-11T23:59:55Z

I'm so bored with myself.

I really ought to get to church next week because I do feel sort of lacking in anything. Lacking in emotion or anything.

The BAFTAs tonight were mostly awful. The only high points were Pan's Labyrinth winning Film in a Foreign Language and James McAvoy getting clapped - the proud look on Anne-Marie Duff's face was worth hours of misery.

Also, never ever google Joan Bennett with large images filter switched on. I did NOT need to see that.

yeah, just spent too much money I don't have

2007-02-11T18:24:33Z

BECAUSE I AM AWESOME, I today bought five postcards of the beautiful Gladys Cooper for £10. They're really stunning and I'm going to have to scan them and post on ladyaudley, hahah.

And then, when I got back from Haworth, I bought a 1913 fashion magazine on Ebay because I'm sort of addicted at the moment, although I'm only going to buy things that are sort of investments.

There's a signed picture of Alice Faye in The Souk. It's worth a lot of money, but mostly for the frame which is solid silver so that's kind of depressing, I really want the picture but I'm not willing to pay £200 for a frame I don't even want. It's sort of ugly. But the picture is incredible. And signed!

There's a major lot that I'm bidding on and REALLY want to win because it's an absolute bargain that ends at about 4AM tomorrow morning. I might have to set an alarm or something. I know it sounds stupid, but I could make a lot of money out of this item and I'm really interested.

I'm putting my £100 towards all this good stuff, you know. It's the only way I can justify it.

I also discovered that The Souk has two Victorian fashion plates for sale and, folks, you have no idea how tempted I am. £10 each. 1843. My favourite era. Oh, it's tough being me.

parisianpierrot @ 2007-02-11T01:22:00

2007-02-11T01:28:55Z

Meg came back after fourteen hours.

She looked terrible. Muddy, filthy, soaking wet.

She jumped at every sound and ran around the house nervously.

She'd obviously been through some kind of ordeal.

She hasn't eaten and I'll tell you, that's extraordinarily unlike her. First she was cleaning herself, then she just fell asleep.

I've spent most of the last five hours crying because I honestly thought I'd lost her.

We might never let the cats out again. Because we believe that Meg was being chased by something.

Hmmm, yeah.

I don't want to sleep tonight. I'm still worried about her, she's terribly frail.

meh.

2007-02-10T17:37:48Z

My Meggy has been missing for about twelve hours. I know that cats stay out for long stretches at times but I'm still ridiculously churned up, especially as the ground is covered in snow. I've been praying that she shows up soon. Isn't it crazy how pets are so important to people? Although perhaps crazy's not the right word.

Yeah, that's been the day's major event. I've not done anything but search for her all day, this is the first I've come online because I didn't want to be away from the windows in case I spotted her. But it's dark now so there's nothing I can do. And I'll tell you something, walking up, and more importantly, down, a very steep hill when there's that horrible slushy slippery snow on it is not a pleasant way to spend a Saturday afternoon. Even the pavements were too slippy to walk on, and I had to walk down the middle of the road.

I just hope my Meg comes back soon because I've already had one cat go missing and it's just awful waiting and expecting and never getting any news.

a horse and cart is far more reliable. unless the horse dies.

2007-02-09T14:38:16Z

Just got a call from my mum who was out picking up the car.

There's a problem with it and she's had to call the RAC.

How utterly hopeless is that? I mean, it's literally only just come back from the garage who have had it for four weeks.

This is all absolutely insane, and it looks like I won't be going to Haworth this weekend after all.

Moo.

it's gonna be a beautiful day

2007-02-09T13:41:52Z

After a month in the garage and several months of inactivity, the car is finally coming back home today! I'm so excited. I haven't been in a car for weeks which is slightly tragic. Travelling everywhere by bus is all very well if you have a lot of time on your hands but I tell you, getting to Ilkley by public transport is a little evil. And I can't remember the last time I went to Haworth. Possibly when Jadey (sensation_rag) was here in the autumn. That's like a death sentence. Not Jade being here, lol. But not being able to get to Haworth.

My plan for the day. Mess about in Photoshop until mother gets home. Possibly go out. Come back and work on website. If I don't go out, then I'll work on website all day.

My cats make me insanely happy. They're so adorable. And, if they could, they'd agree with me.

my mum is the best.

2007-02-09T01:06:38Z

Yeah, my mum cheered up which is a good thing. I know she gets grouchy and says things she doesn't mean. It hurts but usually I can deal with it. Tonight I couldn't for some reason, it just got to me. And we were arguing about something so ridiculous and meaningless - a blocked toilet, lol.

We had a really good chat just now. We were talking about all sorts of things - gay marriage and adoption, war, being a Christian, judging people - for over two hours and it felt really good to just... let go. Talking til one o'clock is lots of fun =) I love my mum to bits, she's pretty much my best friend.

site building = fun.

2007-02-08T19:13:12Z

I'm working on my website and I'd forgotten how confusing html can be. I haven't used any other than the basic tags for quite a while now and it's quite tricky getting to grips with it. That said, my site's basic coding is really quite simple, as is the layout in general. I think I'll make a slightly more glamorous header - I just cropped a photo to have something there for reference. It's a nice photo though, makes me feel all nostalgic.

I'm working on Geocities before I upload my stuff to my site. The server is being daft and the lovely lauralorien is sorting it out =)

http://www.geocities.com/faithxrudd/other.html

Anyone know why my main text is in the middle of the table like that? It's very frustrating to have to scroll down to read what's going on. I can't figure it out.

i don't much like war.

2007-02-08T14:03:44Z

So, I finally sat right down and watched Joyeaux Noël.

Everybody, I think, has some sort of knowledge of the events of Christmas Day, 1914, so I won't go into that. I didn't, however, know how harsh the consequences were for those who took part in the ceasefire.

The film was good - not quite brilliant, but very good nonetheless. The story itself is perfect for a film, so I wonder why it's taken so long to become one. I don't know how long it was all kept secret though - for no side wanted to admit that their soldiers had been friendly with the others.

It's made me think. Being 17, British and from a socialist family, I'm naturally terribly opposed to war. How could these people fight one another after such an event? Well, they couldn't. But how can anybody fight another?

The film shows that our soldiers were trained to believe that the enemy were not human - not 'Children of God'. Which is absolutely despicable - as a Christian, you're taught that all people are equal, we are all God's children and He loves us all. No matter your country, colour or creed. No matter your politics, or the views of your leader.

Yeah. I feel like a re-read of All Quiet on the Western Front, one of the most moving and incredible novels I've ever read.

jane eyre is absolute perfection

2007-02-07T20:43:41Z

Our cash flow problems are - well, they're still there, but at least the car is paid for. My grandmother offered, and is refusing to accept any money back if and when my mother gets it. Part of this is because my mother told her that I was offering my birthday money up, which I was. Thank you so much for all your thoughts and prayers.

So yes, I got my lovely Jane Eyre DVD! I've screencapped the first episode and it comes to something ridiculous like 1800. Heh. I like Toby Stephens ;D The deleted scenes are delightful! Lots more of her childhood especially - and more Helen Burns scenes! I felt a decided lack of Helen when I watched it. Helen was my absolute idol, possibly because my brothers teased me for my red hair and she was beautiful. And she was so sweet and gentle and I wanted to be just like her, even if I did see far more of myself in Jane's spirited self.

I don't really have very much more to say about that, or any other matter. I'm looking forward to watching Ugly Betty and eating tortilla chips (I can only eat unhealthily when watching that show - yeah) and then I shall watch more Jane Eyre perhaps. And drool over a certain Mr Stephens. Oh, Rochester. How perfect art thou.

parisianpierrot @ 2007-02-07T16:31:00

2007-02-07T16:33:06Z

HI GUESS WHAT I GOT ON DVD OH YES IT'S MINE ALL MINE.

I WANT TOBY STEPHENS' BABIES.

fun fun fun

2007-02-06T23:52:12Z

Hi. Do this meme please, chicks.

Hahah, I'm shameless.

without you, life would be like a broken pencil. pointless.

2007-02-06T18:52:05Z

Hello folks! How are you all? I seem to be quite cheery today. Possibly because I slept all afternoon! I went to bed to finish off The Day of the Triffids and fell asleep as soon as I finished, and slept until five.

I could do with some prayers for my mother and I. We're having some serious financial difficulties as it turned out that the car is going to cost a lot more money to repair than we had anticipated. Which makes me feel terrible, because my mother has been sort of treating me a little lately.

That said, I did buy two £65 silk skirts from Laura Ashley in the sale yesterday for £10 each. One is petrol blue and pleated, the other is deep purple with sequin detail on the bottom. I also bought three books for £5 - Ghost Stories of Henry James, Classic Victorian and Edwardian Ghost Stories and Shadows of Sherlock Holmes, which is a collection of Victorian/Edwardian detective stories. And I bought a late art deco (probably 1940s?) hand mirror which is really beautiful, and it only cost about £2.25. I love charity shops =D

I'm going to do some film watching this week, I think. Yet to watch, I have Marie Antoinete (1938), The 400 Blows, Une Femme est une Femme, Brighton Rock and Joyeaux Noël. And I have the TV shows Lilies and The Tenant of Wildfell Hall. And some Ugly Betty!

And at present I'm watching Blackadder which makes me very very happy! =D

um... yey?

2007-02-04T22:59:03Z

View Poll: Random but hopefully cute poll, yey!

at worst i feel bad for a while but then i just smile

2007-02-04T21:52:21Z

Hi folks, I love making polls! What should I make a poll for? I need to make more! And more!

I've watched lots of Ugly Betty today. I love that show. My favourite characters (besides the obvious) are definitely Justin, Marc and Sofia.

I watched Pan's Labyrinth last night. I highly recommend it, but you have to have a pretty strong stomach to watch some of the scenes. Some of the violence did shock me a great deal, and some of the narrative made for difficult viewing, but it was a beautiful, brilliant and intelligent film that really moved me. Just remember that it's not a kid's film just because it's a fantasy with a child protagonist and you should get along just fine.

I'm going to toddle off now. I want to make a nice visual post later on although I'm not sure what of. Leave me suggestions and I'll try to post pictures of them. Unless they're... totally unsuitable.

I like classic films, yey!

2007-02-04T13:12:57Z

Polls = TOO MUCH FUN.

View Poll: Classic Movie Guff

i'm singing in the major key

2007-02-03T13:05:50Z

I just grabbed hold of something sharp on the back of my computer and my finger won't stop bleeding =/

I feel better now. The other night, I let out this almighty scream for apparently no reason and just cried and cried and cried and my mum came and hugged me and stayed with me for ages to make sure I was okay.

Thank you so much to everyone who commented. It meant an awful lot to me. I hate making posts like this because I feel so emo but at that moment in time, I really needed to just let something out, anything. And the little I did let out helped me, and receiving your comments helped too ♥ I'm sorry I can't talk to you about my problems - I'm too English for all that. Crying in front of my mum was hard enough.

I'm currently entirely in love with this song. I can't stop listening. It's amazing. I listened to it in the middle of the night when I was depressed and it made me get up and dance. That's an acheivement.

parisianpierrot @ 2007-02-01T20:16:00

2007-02-01T20:17:49Z

I need help.

I just did something I thought I wouldnt' do and I did and I don't know what to do.

Everything is so mixed up and I need to talk to someone but I don't want to pile it all on them.

I feel sick. I want to be sick.

some lovely mathias!

2007-02-01T14:45:07Z

Mathias Lauridsen = the most attractive person I've ever seen. I honestly mean that =O

in worn out shoes

2007-01-29T20:28:00Z

I think everything went okay for Nicole. I don't know for sure because she didn't want to talk about it in front of James but - -

James said he didn't know why his dad was doing this. He has more sense than his father, apparently.

Seeing Henry and James was absolutely lovely though. Even if I did end up with a bust lip when I got kicked in the face. Errm.

I'm trying to choose a good digital camera. At the moment I'm looking at the Canon IXUS 60 which doesn't look too bad and is reasonably priced.

Nicole gave me a cheque for £100. I don't really know what to do with it. It's for my birthday but - I don't really want to waste it, and I don't want anything really. Maybe I should buy more film annuals for my collection. It's an investment. So I say.

parisianpierrot @ 2007-01-26T18:41:00

2007-01-26T18:51:01Z

I finally got around to watching Beau Brummell: This Charming Man and you people have absolutely no idea how pleased I am that they cast an actor who actually looks like my beloved Byron.

so live and laugh at it all

2007-01-25T17:42:08Z

I went shopping today, yey! I bought a beautiful blue plaid baby doll dress (although the skirt is so huge and high that it almost looks like a maternity dress, so I shall have to be careful what I wear it with) - see below - and five pieces of jewellery that were at £1 each (I worked out what they were originally, and it came to an alarming £34 so it's not half bad getting them for £5). I also bought The Turn of the Screw by Henry James because stardustdarling shared the film The Innocents with me a while back which is based on the story and I found it entrancing. I love those gothic tales.

Hopefully my internet will work now as I'm in my bedroom. Although I feel lonely.

I've had the song Life Is Just A Bowl Of Cherries stuck in my head for days and days now. It's such a sweet song. I'll have to share it with you all someday.

little by little by little by little

2007-01-20T22:35:11Z

Oh look, it's Sherlock Holmes.

Today has been spent getting very frustrated at my computer and not really very much else. I apologise for being a boring thing.

So here, have a couple of family photos I felt like scanning earlier.

My grandma in her early teens, late 1930s

Some unknown folks, c. late 1920s/early 1930s

A get-together, c.1926. My grandma is the toddler and her mother is the woman holding her. Next to her, in the dark top with lighter collar, is my great-grandfather's sister Beatrice. He is on the photo near the back :)

And that, as they say, is that.

PS I really need to make some Cate icons. I've been downloading pictures literally all day. With my internet being all rubbish, it's taken forever.

PPS The Camomile Lawn is on and my word, it's so capitvating to see sch a young Toby Stephens. He may be better looking now than he was then (when he will have been all of about 22) but he's so sweet. And he looks so darned pale and ginger and it's delightful.